I'm in love!

I just have the most wonderful husband and son! They are adorable, and I adore them. Whenever I come to get done out of his crib, stays in his crib for a minute or two to tell me what is on his mind. It is usually "helicopter helicopter airplane airplane, where it go?" Yesterday and today, he has added on. "The doctors doctor. Yeah." He is just so cute, I can't even take it in!

Seth and I are wrote his first cover letter for MBA internship applications tonight. We are great team! I am so happy I married him :-)

Headband day

John loves to do everything I do!

I sure love this cutie!

Watch the General Women's Meeting!

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Here is one of my favorite parts of the last Women's Meeting: The Savior taught, 

“If any man will do his will, he shall know of the doctrine.”² What do we need to know and do “to live with him someday”?³ We can learn from the story of the rich young man who asked Jesus what he needed to do in order to receive eternal life.

Jesus answered him, “If thou wilt enter into life, keep the commandments.”

The young man asked Him which ones he should keep. Jesus then reminded him of several of the Ten Commandments we are all familiar with.

The young man responded, “All these things have I kept from my youth up: what lack I yet?”

Jesus said, “If thou wilt be perfect, go and sell that thou hast, and give to the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come and follow me.”⁴

Jesus called him to become a part of His work—the work of a disciple. Our work is the same. We are to “lay aside the things of [the] world, … cleave unto [our] covenants,”⁵ and come unto Christ and follow Him. That’s what disciples do!

Now, sisters, let’s not start beating ourselves up because the Savior spoke to the rich young man about becoming perfect. The word perfect in this account was translated from a Greek word that means “complete.” As we try our best to move forward along the covenant path, we become more complete and perfect in this life.

Like the rich young man in Jesus’s day, sometimes we are tempted to give up or turn back because maybe we think we can’t do it alone. And we are right! We cannot do the difficult things we have been asked to do without help. Help comes through the Atonement of Jesus Christ, the guidance of the Holy Ghost, and the helping hands of others.

Emily's 28th birthday dinner

To celebrate my 28th birthday, Seth took me to dinner close to downtown at the Black Creek Bistro. Our friend, Esther Olsen was very kind to babysit John for us, and John adores her! It's cool that the Black Creek Bistro uses local food in season.

I really enjoyed their hummus platter.

The duck tostadas were pretty exotic. Duck is a much more oily meat than others. It was interesting.

We ordered mussels to share, but then Seth got to enjoy them by himself because the waitress didn't realize that butter is also included in the blanket statement, "I am allergic to all dairy." Poor gal. She was very embarrassed. I assured her I wasn't put out. They comped the mussels, and brought us a yummy pasta dish.

Then Seth and I took a stroll down by the river on what seems like Columbus' lovers' lane. It is right across from the Ohio Supreme Court House. There are beautiful plants, fountains and even bench swings.

I loved how these trees were so clearly reflected in the still water of this fountain.

We just had to check out the giant gavel by the courthouse.

And the river is under major construction, so it doesn't look that pretty, but there were many giant construction vehicles, and I had to take a picture of this "Digger!" for John's sake. He loves reading about them in books.

I sure love this man! It's going to be a crazy and wonderful year!

I'm excited for date night tonight! Date night is so essential to keeping marriage happy, especially when you have children, and your husband works 80 hours a week. It's hard to believe that I can count the hours that we've seen Seth this week, and that I can't count how many times John has asked me, "Where's Papa?" This is quite the transition for us after having Seth home around 5:30 every night for 6 years. Seth is doing a great job. He is working hard, and somehow, he's keeping up. I am very proud of him, and I know God will sustain us.

Wash hands?

At least 10 times a day John asks me the question, "wash hands?" He can finally stand on a stool and reach the stream of water from the faucet, so I don't have to hold him up to the sink, which is physically very challenging for me. Yesterday he asked me again, "wash hands?" And I needed to do the dishes, so I thought, why not? So I got out a few kitchen things, turn on a small stream of water, and John "washed hands" for 20 minutes! Glorious! We are finally branching out to independent play time! Have to let some expectations go. John's shirt was soaked with water, as was the whole bathroom floor, and I did have to go back and turn on the faucet for him about 10 times. But he was so happy. And he really enjoyed himself! And I got to get the dishes done!

Under the clear blue sky

I finally got back to the mat! Today is an absolutely gorgeous day. This is not just a blue rectangle, it is the color of the sky that I gazed at as I meditated on my Yoga mat on our patio during John's nap.

I regained so much peace and calm during this time alone. As I listened to the relaxation station on Pandora and rejuvenated my body and my mind. 

It is so wonderful that most of our patio is shaded, but it is also nice that part of it has sunshine so I can feel the warm sun on my face.

When I take time to do this, I can feel God's Spirit nudging me and encouraging me; letting me know that with gods' help, I can do this. I can do all that is required of me. And everything will be alright somehow.

Dessert tonight

Dessert tonight for John consisted of popcorn, honeydew and carrots :-) he loved it!

It is amazing how much he is learning and developing! Today he really started stream sentences together, like, "where did he go?" "BeBe is in Chicago."

Pray for love

Sometimes John really tests my patience.    This week has been pretty full of those moments. And it probably has to do with midterms and Seth being gone so much. Sometimes when John is having a 10 minute tantrum, I'm tempted to get it on video so that Seth could see it and understand what my day was like, but then I don't. I get on my knees and pray to thank God to have john as my son and that He would give me patience and fill me with love for john, and then He does. I love this little boy with my whole soul. It's easier to feel after the long day of tantrums, running away and disobeying us over, but it always comes, and with God's help I'm able to better keep my temper and show love. 

I go into John's room every night before I sleep to check on him and pat him on the back and hold his little hand. He is like an angel when he sleeps, and I feel so full of love and so thankful to be a mother. God gives me enough love to get me through tomorrow. 

Oh Cleveland...

Transitions can be hard. I think the fact that my arms have been causing me a lot of pain (for over 2 weeks) and are still currently covered in a terrible poison ivy rash  (note, only click on the link if you want to see pictures.) is contributing to me thinking about "the good ole' days in Cleveland" .... when I didn't have this rash. (Well, I did have a lot of other rashes and illnesses, but since those aren't as current, they seem much more bearable).

Oh Cleveland, I miss...

-the Cleveland Library, specifically the Lee Library, on my street. 15 houses away, we could walk to it, and have anything we ordered sent there, and pick it up when it arrived. It was the best library

-Dellwood Rd. - our neighbors, the gorgeous trees, the familiarity of it all, and most of all, The Winders. Living side by side in our duplex together. Beth, Bob, Stella, Max. Dinner and babysitting swaps, recipe sharing, play dates, real genuine friendship

-So many friends - Katie Taylor, Myrtle Alexander, Emily and Sam Barker, Matt and Marie Buetler, Kjirsti Foutz, Ollie Griffin, Anne Evans, all of the Shaker Heights Ward, Chelsea DeMille, Karen McMullen, Teri Englemann, Luke (our bishop) and Christi Harmer, our landlord, the Copes, Donna, the Calls, Michael Haymond (our stake president) Steve Barnes, Krystal Webb, Miranda Livingston, Adam and Laura Nelson, Ivan Tseng, Fay and George Williams ... I could never name them all, the list goes on and on! There are so many! (If I didn't name you, know that I love you, and I've got to go to sleep sometime tonight.) Some of those aren't even in Cleveland anymore, but I will always remember our times there.

-Eddy Fruit Farm, and Chesterland and Chagrin Falls - such a gorgeous area, the best fruit farm ever, such delicious, and inexpensive apples, one of our favorite traditions, apple picking in the fall in th emost beautiful setting; and driving through one of our favorite areas in Ohio, seeing the gorgeous, old and unique homes

-our Shaker Heights Ward (congregation) and Kirtland Stake (regional congregation)

-so many happy memories there, the place where we were so blessed when John came into our lives and changed us forever

-our Dellwood house - our sunroom, our wonderful and surprisingly spacious kitchen (I never knew how much counter space we really had!) our fenced in yard, the baby swing, our spacious living room, having everything unpacked and in it's proper place, and all the decorations gracing our home, the hostas I planted, my vegetable garden

-having Seth come home most nights at 5:30pm and not have homework or studying or meetings...and having an income with benefits

-being in the place where my paternal grandparents were born and raised, as well as their ancestors, and being able to visit the beautiful cemeteries, and learn more about them.

-my physical therapists, Angie Holpuch, and Andrew Eaton, and my wonderful doctor, Mitchell Reider

-knowing which grocery stores we buy each food item at and where all the stores are that we needed

-sidewalks, that we could walk on (when I could walk) and take walks and see all the wonderful Cleveland homes

-Shaker Lakes, Northpark Blvd., Shelborne Rd., Southpark Blvd. my favorite house on Overlook Rd.

Tonight, I am thinking of all those things, people and places with nostalgia. We had many trials and a lot of suffering in Cleveland, but I'm not remembering those times. I am remembering the beauty and joy and happiness we had there. I had this similar feeling when we first moved to Cleveland 6 years ago. I missed BYU-Idaho and Rexburg. I didn't feel a sense of belonging yet. Everything was so new. I knew I didn't belong in Idaho anymore, but I had loved it there, and I wasn't used to Cleveland yet. There were so many people to meet and a lot of learning to do. So much of who I have become now is because of our experiences in Cleveland. We have grown so much. I don't wish to go back. I know we are meant to be here, and that we don't belong there now. It is different now. Someone else lives in our old house using our beautiful kitchen, and tiny bathroom (I don't miss that!), someone else lives where the Winder's used to live. It's not the same. We are on to new adventures now. It is difficult now; still not being settled in and unpacked, and getting used to not seeing Seth as much, and trying to care for John being covered in poison ivy rash. But that will not be forever, and God is helping me remember how much I need Him to help me through every single moment. Oh how I need His help and comfort! All this reflecting makes me think of this quote by one of our modern-day apostles, Jeffery R. Holland in "Remember Lot's Wife"

"I plead with you not to dwell on days now gone, nor to yearn vainly for yesterdays, however good those yesterdays may have been. The past is to be learned from but not lived in. We look back to claim the embers from glowing experiences but not the ashes. And when we have learned what we need to learn and have brought with us the best that we have experienced, then we look ahead, we remember that faith is always pointed toward the future. Faith always has to do with blessings and truths and events that will yet be efficacious in our lives. "

I left part of my heart in Cleveland. It will always be one of my homes, but the wonderful thing is that my heart was broken and healed and it grew so much during that time that I have enough heart left for Columbus, and for our adventures, trials and joys we'll have here.

There are fabulous things about Columbus that I already love, and we will make many happy memories here. We will learn and grow, and enjoy our time here and we are already making lasting friendships. I know we need to be here, and I'm glad we are.

And I know it's alright to remember and claim the embers of glowing Cleveland experiences, and to plan a trip to visit (when this rash clears up!) Anyone want some house guests for a weekend? It's ok because this is my new life, and it is good, and it will be great because we will make it great, with God as our helper. I will gain back all my physical therapy progress that I've lost since our move and my rash, little by little, I'll get the house all settled, and we'll make our new routine. I am excited for whatever is ahead.

Although I don't like the endings, I know they aren't forever. Another one of our apostles gave this sage counsel in General Conference:

"Your testimony of Christ, born of the Holy Ghost, can help you look past the disappointing endings in mortality and see the bright future that the Redeemer of the world has prepared.

We Are Not Made for Endings

In light of what we know about our eternal destiny, is it any wonder that whenever we face the bitter endings of life, they seem unacceptable to us? There seems to be something inside of us that resists endings.

Why is this? Because we are made of the stuff of eternity. We are eternal beings, children of the Almighty God, whose name is Endless and who promises eternal blessings without number. Endings are not our destiny.

The more we learn about the gospel of Jesus Christ, the more we realize that endings here in mortality are not endings at all. They are merely interruptions—temporary pauses that one day will seem small compared to the eternal joy awaiting the faithful.

How grateful I am to my Heavenly Father that in His plan there are no true endings, only everlasting beginnings.

Have we not reason to be filled with gratitude, regardless of the circumstances in which we find ourselves?"

Dieter F. Uchtdorf, "Grateful in Any Circumstances"

I am seeing God's handiwork in the marvelous tapestry of my life. Although the color He might be using is and itchy and burning red one with some glints of gold, red is a vibrant and beautiful color that can add depth and meaning to a work of art. My life would not mean as much if it were all an easy, dull color. 

"How blessed we are if we recognize God’s handiwork in the marvelous tapestry of life. Gratitude to our Father in Heaven broadens our perception and clears our vision. It inspires humility and fosters empathy toward our fellowmen and all of God’s creation. Gratitude is a catalyst to all Christlike attributes! A thankful heart is the parent of all virtues.¹⁶ Dieter F. Uchtdorf, "Grateful in Any Circumstances"

PS, I can't believe this is my last day of being 27! Oh my, how life passes so quickly! 

Ohio State Fair with Bebe and Aunt Laura! 7-29-14

My wonderful mother came to help us move, and at the end of her visit, she took us to the Ohio State fair.  When she was a kid, her mom would take her and her sister Kelli to the state fair every here. They would go for the entire day, and their dad would meet them for dinner at night. It is one of her favorite childhood memories. My favorite thing at the fair was the fruit and vegetable sculptures

John really enjoyed the fair, and he loved the animals.

We were so happy that her aunt Laura (my dad's youngest sister ) could meet us at the fair.

Joan was thrilled that the calf licked his hand.

Riding the tractor

When we walked into the fair, my mom ran into some childhood friends. Their families had Thanksgiving together every year.

The butter cow

The real cow

Thanks for a wonderful memory mom!